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Writing my words

I realize I have not been writing here for a while, but that is because I’m a pretty big mess right now and there’s just not much about it that I’d like to share. In the last two and a half weeks there have been some issues to juggle and one huge obstacle to conquer (which I did, and can’t believe that I did!).  I know that’s all vague sounding, it’s just that I’m not ready to write about those things in this space.

Writing in general has totally been helping me, though.  I’ve been using a private space to journal daily – it’s called 750Words.  Basically it’s a space to “unload” your thoughts and to get in the habit of writing daily.  It has been tremendously helpful for me – I’ve used it to journal my feelings, document my process, take notes on things I’m studying, etc.  It also kind of has a community feel to it as well – even though my writing is completely private, the site rewards you for writing for certain lengths of time (days), and cheers you on, etc.  Some days it’s super hard to come with 750 words, and other days I have to force myself to wrap it up waaaaay past the 750 words.

When I’m in a healthier space I’ll be back to share more.  There are ups and downs, such is life.   I can’t wait to fast forward to a few months from now when there are way more ups than downs.  You’ll be there to high five me, right?

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About queenbbl

I'm Barbara, and I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. This year I was diagnosed with a chronic condition that finally woke me up to the fact that I never really have been super healthy. Sinus issues, fatigue, weakness, and sometimes anxiety and depression have joined the list as well. I decided I wasn't going to be getting any better if I didn't address the issues at hand. This is the hard part for me, because even though I was frustrated about being sick and tired all the time, I was too afraid to actually take a look at what was causing all of these things. It's hard to admit that you have weaknesses and that you aren't Susie Sunshine, life of the party, all the time. So, this Six Month Refuel is to finally take care of myself. To deal with each and every issue. To get stronger, to get better. And to be okay with not being Susie Sunshine all the time. I'll be focusing on my physical AND mental health. I have a huge plan in place to do these things along with the support of my husband - I'll be sharing SOME of these plans and what is of use to me. Thanks for following along with me. It's easier to do this knowing I'm not alone. You are nice.

20 Responses to Writing my words

  1. Kenny

    Massive high fives at the ready. You can even have some today if you want.

  2. Julie ⋅

    High fiving you now baby!!!!! It takes a lot of courage to say “Hey, I’m having a rough time”. I’ve got your back and you can always call me if you need to talk. I too am having a rough time,and I also don’t want to talk about it with people. See…. maybe we really are “sistas!!!” Love you!

  3. KC ⋅

    Just so you don’t feel alone, I’ve been a mess for at least a month and I’m not good at sharing at all, so don’t feel guilty about keeping to yourself.
    XXOO

  4. CEM ⋅

    QBBL, Cheers to you! And just remember you don’t owe us out here anything. This blog is really for YOU so you do it when and how you need to that works best for your process. We just get to join in along the way and give you a boost and share a little of ourselves that might be helpful or just interesting. :) You are a brave soul to do this, regardless of the frequency. I’m glad to hear you have found another private outlet for your thoughts, missives and ideas. Be well.

    • queenbbl

      Thanks CEM. My favorite part is hearing from you guys! It’s easier to hobble through all this when you know others have hobbled before you (even if it isn’t exactly the same path). I appreciate you!

  5. Andrea ⋅

    Big High Five for getting through each day, and addressing difficult things along the way. For a long time I have wanted to write about a challenging area in my life, but didn’t want the whole world to hear my private thoughts – and the pen-to-paper process doesn’t let me get my thoughts out fast enough. Thank you for introducing 750 words. I truly believe the first step to getting healthy – or getting past major issues – starts with thinking out your feelings and talking through all the junk, and the 750 words blog seems like the perfect place. After all, if you come up with something really amazing that you do want to pass along, you can just copy and paste that tidbit into your public media of choice. Keep up the good work and soon the easy days will out weigh the challenging ones!

    • queenbbl

      YAY Andrea, I’m so glad that 750Words is a tool you can use! It is TOTALLY a great place to do a “brain dump” and work things out – and I HAVE totally used it to write entries for here as well. I agree, getting the gunk out FIRST is monumental (although while it’s happening it doesn’t always feel that way!). Thank you SO much for your encouragement!! xoxo

  6. Jill ⋅

    Sending you high fives and hugs! It is difficult to share when we are stressed and dealing with issues and I applaud you for your determination!

  7. Hi Barbara, I tried to post a comment, but I wasn’t logged in. It was a good one too! Basically, I said to be grateful for these times because it shows you who you really are! As you know, we learn from every situation and grow! You’re just in process. Happy growing!

    • queenbbl

      Chris, you always have such a great way of looking at the brightest possible side – and you’re right I just KNOW this is my time to grow, and I will just try to trust the process. That’s pretty uplifting to think about! THANK YOU! xoxo

  8. Allison ⋅

    Yes! I can picture us 20 years from now hanging out and marveling at how we got through our tough times. Thank you for staying in touch during your trials. very grateful for that.

  9. Barbara, you are doing fantastic! As always you are a trendsetter and an inspiration! Thank you!

    Did you know that Jack London made himself write 1,000 words a day, everyday! So if you’re doing 750 WOW! Take it easy and don’t pressure yourself. REST. Hugs

  10. Renee

    I just listened to this lady that has fully recovered from cancer, and it was so encouargaing to me. I’ll send it to you. She talks about being easy on ourselves… it felt really good to hear it. Sending you love and support <3

    • queenbbl

      Thanks for passing the links on, Renee. We must be on the same wavelength because I just read Anita’s book a few weeks ago – what an AMAZING story. I appreciate your thinking of me and for your love and support!

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